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ಕಣ್ಮುಚ್ಚಿ, ಹೆದೆ ಬಿಚ್ಚಿ, ಮನ ನೊಂದು
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ThIs IS the MOmEnt

This is the moment
When my throat dries up & lips as well
When my tongue can’t spell

This is the moment
When my face blush & My eyes glow,
but I miss my thought flow

This is the moment
When I am not able to say what I feeling
When I am not able to speak what I am thinking

This is the moment
When my Legs find the way out
This is the moment
When my heart gets heavy and burst out,
Bringing a Big smile on my face
That longs last till the next phase

This is the moment
When I say to myself
Do not loose your self

This is the moment
With my Hands adjusting the hair
And my throat trying to repair
I try to say, "How are you?"
Just to realise there is no voice in my throat …..

One more time… my inner voice says….

This is the moment
When I have missed my the chance

Never mind, next time… I console myself

This is the moment
When that big smile still on my face,
Broadens up and says
“Stupid!!!”

This is the moment
When I wake up
This is the moment I smile at myself
With sense of satisfaction, though did nothing but a big smile

This is the moment that I am looking for
This is the moment I am waiting for.

One more time
With my sweet voice coming out of my wet throat,
With cute smile on my face and little blush,
When I can open my lips, and say
That three little words…!!!

This is the moment that I am looking for
This is the moment I am waiting for.

DETERMINATION

Nike+ 10K marathon… though it happened long back, I felt like writing about it now.

I saw Nike+ 10 K Race ad. Its was 7PM and was last day for registration. I decided to Run the raceI don’t have credit card, neither a bank account which supports online payment, nor time to courier the cheque. For that matter, I don’t even had cheque book to pay and have no time to go and pay cash at the centre ( I am not sure if they were taking cash), but no time to courier the checque.

But only one determination- to participate in that. That was only my goal and I could oversee all these hurdles.

Not only these hurdles, to add up to this, I had nobody who was with me to participate. The race was in the evening and out of the city. I don’t have any means to come back home at that time. In case, I say that I have to come home late in night alone, my parents would not agree. So I cant call them to pick me up.

Not only this, the biggest one is, I don’t even run a KM a day even a jog. Somewhere sometime, in college around 8 years back, I had run 500 Mts race and had won 2nd place. But some where I knew I can run 10 KMs. So this hurdle is overcome blindly with my determination and will to run.

I called my friend to join me to marathon. I had no hope that she will join, but she said OK, to my surprise. My problem of companion almost solved, but have to register & pay money that day itself at any cost to join the race.

Now, I called two of my other friends asking for some help for making payments-cheque or credit card. They took some time for decision. Its almost 8.30 or 9.00 PM.

Still, my hope and were alive. I knew I can make it. Then one of my friend called me back and said she has cheque book of one of the banks, but she don’t have any balance. But, I was lucky enough that I also have same bank account. So I told her, give me the cheque, I will transfer the amount right now.

Then called up Nike office and asked if its OK if I can make the payment tomorrow and registration now. They said OK.

Its 9.30 Pm, I registered online with the cheque number. Most of the hurdle almost solved. But I can run only if I can make the payment. I knew at any cost I cant spare a minute the next day on anything, as I was totally booked with meeting and calls. But I promised to Pay the next day, But how? I had no idea.

Next day, I got call at around 10 AM next day, a lady asking if I have made the payment. I said, “not yet , I shall do it at end of the day.” Its Thursday, and the race is on Saturday. The kit will be distrubuted only on Friday after the payment is made.

Its around 7PM, I am yet to make the payment. No time. I get another call from a lady asking for the payment. I said, “Yes, I have made the payment just now, through courier.” I knew, in another 10 min I shall reach the city from my office and can make the payment.

But, by the time I reached the city its 8.00 pm, and to my surprise all courier stores are were closed. Then, I decided to call them up again and say I couldn't make the payment so I am dropping. But inside myself, I dint wanted to give up. I knew I can do it if try but if I give up, that is the end.

But I decided to take an auto to my house from Sajjan Rao Circle. But still in dilemma. I could find no courier store on the way. Very near to my house, I somehow could find one shop. But it’s a KM away from my house, its dark and lonely place to walk. I slowly asked the auto driver, “ could you please wait for me for 5 min, I need to courier this and its very urgent. And I don’t get any auto from here and cant walk as well.”

Ironically, I am planning to run 10K marathon and that too in evening, out of the city. But I cant walk 1 KM near my place at 8.30 PM.

Auto Driver agreed to wait. But in that shop, a lady was very busy attending to customer who are just giving Re 1 or 2 business to her. How disgusting is what i felt. I told her, “Madam, I have a Rik waiting for me, could you attend me fast.” Then she gave me the bill book and asked me to fill everything on my own. Great! I thought.

Meanwhile, I realised that was some “Good Travel” courier. Good Travel?? I haven’t heard of that name, but have no choice. But, should I have to trust them?. Then asked her, “ When will it reach?” She said “ Saturday”. I thought, I lost money, along with the race, because I had already given her the packet.

Couldn’t sleep whole night. Then decided to block the cheques and inform them that I am dropping. This time I was 99% sure.

On Friday, I got a call saying my registration is confirmed and can take the kit. What? ?

Then next sentence they asked, "did you make the payment." I said, "I have couriered it yesterday and gave the consignment number." He said OK, please collect your Kit.

Though I was happy, I was not totally. My friend did not get the confirmation yet.

At that time, I realised the fact that I have not put the date on the cheque. It will bounce, Am sure. Ooops. That is it.I called that lady immediately and total my name and registration number. She said your registration is confirmed. I said, "but one of friends registration is not confirmed. " She took her details and confirmed her registration as well.

“But”, I said, “ Actually there is problem in my cheque, I have not written the date.” She casually said no problem. However, I gave her the cheque number and asked her to put the date for herself.

Then we collected the Kit.

And I ran total 10KM, though walked for sometime and it took 90 mins to complete the race :-)

I did it.

Lesson learnt is that “When we have firm determination to do something, we can really achieve them, whatever the hurdles come.”

INTERCOMPANY - The way of living

"Intercompany", the word that I use very often and I have been using it for past one year. Intercompany is my work, is my process and is my specialisation for now. Of all it’s a WAY OF LIVING. All we have in intercompany is "zero" at end of day, we make it "zero". But Zero??? Read on.....

We have 13 different countries- although all 13 countries are considered as separate entities or companies, they are part of one organisation (Group). Receivables of one company is considered as payable of another company, and viseversa. If we look at the Organisation/Group level, the sum is absolutely "Zero".

All 13 companies were started with a loan from GROUP. Any profits from net of our receivables and payables are used to repay our loan from Group, and if its loss, our loan with group increases. So we have nothing in our hand, at end of the day. We have revenue, we have cost, we have lot of transactions, but at end of day we make it "zero", by repaying our loans.

When I look back, I can corelate Intercompany to Life - way of living.

Same way is our life, though each person is considered to be a separate individuals, at broader level, we are all part of the nature / earth / universe. We are receiving something, which is payable for somebody, or we are paying something, which is receivable for somebody else.

We have used lot of things from this nature to start our life from day 1. We are liable to nature. We are responsible to pay back our liability. Either if your earning is "positive" or "negative", we are all giving it back to nature and we have to. We are all moving with the same objective of repaying our loan.

After all primary objective of every transaction in is to profits, right?

However, The art of living is to enjoy the process of arriving at "zero". If you have not arrived at "zero" checkout, your liability is due.

Every month and month on month, I feel happy when I see "Zero" in my countries final reporting sheet. If I have not arrived at zero, then i am stuck with a problem. I have to solve them in that month to move on or can carry forward to next month by paying a cost in the form of an interest.

Once it is zero, I can close the current month and open the new month. That means new Opportunities and New challenges.

Thats the Way of Life !!! Isnt It? Rather strive paying for old problem, close it and move on to new opportunities and earn from them, and repay the loan.

For Pesonal/Proffessional success personal responsibility and descipline is very necessary from the begining.

Author: Manjula
07-Jul-2009
10.15 pm

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THIS WORLD IS WHAT "WE" SEE AND "WE" THINK

I have always believed that whatever we think of, you will see; whatever we want to be; we will become; whatever we want, we will get it. May be not instantly, but yes we will get it.

THIS WORLD IS WHAT "WE" SEE AND "WE" THINK

In fact, what we think of, we see that; what we want, we will get that; & what we want to be, we become that. This is because what we think of and what we want be is dependent on the "knowledge" that we have on what we are thinking of.

For e.g: When we ask any kid about his career plan, they will normally say doctor or engineer. This is only because their knowledge on job is limited to that, but as and when that kid grows up he acquires more knowledge on the different career opportunities. Again, his interest move towards his knowledge on that particular field. In case, a person opts to be an engineer, this is because his knowledge on that subject says that it will earn him good money, name & also he can go abroad :-) or may be other reason.

If a person thinks about something for long time, his mind would definitely get conditioned to work towards that. It will become his interest and he will start acquiring more and more knowledge on that and hence subsequently getting it.

Some of say that we are confused about what to do next. The best answer to this is to acquire knowledge. Knowledge on ourselves. If we just ask ourself honestly why are we confused? what do we want? where we want to go or where it is available? how can we get it? then we will have all the answers to our confused state. This is because we are acquiring knowledge. Really this 3W1H formula works almost all the time.

Now, lets come to "What we think, we see it". Again as we before discussed, the thinking depends on the knowledge we have. If we see a person is happy because he is rich, our knowledge says money can make us happy so we think like wise.

To give some more e.g: When we see those small kids begging on the road side, in traffic signals, what is that first thing we get in your mind? Some of us might feel pity on them and some of su might say this is all a gang/mafia who is doing this. The former reaction is because we are innocent of any fact about those kids and the former reaction is because we have read or heard somewhere about begging mafia.

Same way everything thing in our life works on the knowledge we have on that subject. So is our reaction to a particular situation.

For e.g: If we know about hating a person for a particular reason, then we feel the other person can also hate us for the same reason. It may not be true though. Same is the case of jealousy, love, kindness and all other traits.

So to conclude on this, As per me, there is nobody good or bad in this world, neither beautiful or ugly person.. its just our knowledge on the good, bad, ugly & beautiful, that makes a person good, bad, ugly & beautiful.

LETS ASK WHY & START ACQUIRING KNOWLEDGE AS MUCH AS WE CAN BEFORE GETTING INTO CONCLUSION TO MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE FOR US TO LIVE IN AND FOR OTHERS AS WELL.

(the above blog is as per my knowledge and this can be debatable as per other's knowledge)

Author: Manjula
26-Jul-2009
9.12 pm

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Man in Naked Drama

The day light is disappearing from the scene as the dark night is invading the world
The sun is hiding behind the mountains, the sky is getting red. It is signalling the sign of danger and Drama begins…

A boy, who is focused in the middle, is looking around at the world with a big Question Mark on his innocent face. Not only his eyes are looking at this world, but also his ribs that have almost come out of his skin are peeping out of his torn clothes to look at this beautiful world.

The king of dark is coming near and near, invading this world with his darkness. Followed by him is his soldiers- the Chill breeze.

To protect themselves, the birds are flying high to reach the nest, while all the creatures on the earth are finding their way to home. But the boy is still in the middle, with no wings to fly nor the way to home. He have idea as to where to go.

The king of dark is almost near the boy now. He sees the innocent face with so many question mark and decides to give him a sweet hug, while the chill breeze warps him up, and takes him away.

Now the boy doesn’t need any shelter nor he feels hunger, thanks to kind hearted King of Dark. The boy is gone, away and very far from this world, where people suffering from hunger and without shelter.

(Should we have to allow the dark to take away the innocent kids? Think again and help them to stay here and enjoy this beautiful world)

Author: Manjula
25-March- 2005
7.14 pm